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As if i didnt have enough to worry about.Now I gotta deal with my ex.But once that is done.I never want anything to do with him ever again.i want my past to go away

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JohnKnox666
15:45 Aug 18 2021

Don't we all?

Good Luck ;).

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FynyxWolf
10:53 Jun 13 2022

Ain't that the truth.we just weren't meant to be no matter how hard I tried.i was never good enough.but it's ok life goes on.

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Just another day like any other except it’s been five years since my dad passed away.crazy right.where’d the time fly to.ive been in Indiana for about a year and a half now.an still learning my way around town.eventually I might learn how.only time can tell.life is pretty good.my man goes to work today.just enjoying a well deserved bubble bath.going later to get food maybe.depends when my man gets home from work.an I’ve been avoiding getting remarried.honestly I don’t know why.maybe I don’t want to get hurt again.started making things again.we shall see what I end up with.surrounded by family.we got a big household.an like seven cats two adults and four kittens.karma and Salem are the adult cats.hell razor,Pandora,Oreo,Persephone are our kittens.gotta get my laptop setup.so I can do school properly.because right now it’s collecting dust.any love and happiness to everyone.have a blessed week.

Now that is out of my system. Today will be a good day.found my jewelry making stuff.going to be creative today.stay blessed everyone.

Why can’t you leave my head.as if crushing my heart wasn’t enough.why can’t I forget you ever entered into my life. I once thought we were meant to be. It took getting divorced,moving to a new state to start from scratch.to open my eyes I deserved better. I deserved someone who would never give up on me.didnt yell at me for having health issues.though I could lose all the weight in the world and it would have never been good enough.get yelled at for snoring like I can change having sleep apnea.because of you I’m still have my heart guarded to an extent. I don’t let many people in.and for good reason. I also learned how to speak my mind. I also don’t memorize things like I once did.simply because I don’t want to be accused of something I would never do to anyone.yet you and your family did.yeah I’ve made my share of mistakes.whats y’alls excuse.and using our once open relationship as an excuse to call me a cheater. I don’t cheat.just cause I talk to someone an call them a animal name doesn’t mean I ever wanted to be with them.for fucks sake the dude had a wife and I’m not a home wrecker.you and your family have me pinned as the enemy and the bad one in the once relationship we had.if you wouldn’t have had your head so far up your ass you would have seen the way your actions towards me made me feel worthless and undeserving of anyone’s love to the point I wished I was dead.because then I could finally be free of all the pain.you used your disabilities Potsdam and blindness as a way to justify the way you treated me.granted you did treat me alright.but making me feel like my pain struggles and issues were never valid was completely wrong of you.i get it you have issues.you didn’t need to take it out on me or the animals we once had together or all the expensive items you broke.guess you never told anyone about that.you may not have physically hit me but the mental and emotional pain was just as bad.and you wonder why I went silent.id rather not scream and yell.unlike you.i didn’t want to be like my parents.who fought all the time.all the times I didn’t come home until late was because I was at the beach watching the waves crash contemplating going in and letting the waves take me away.did you ever consider how your words and actions affected me.no you didn’t.but it’s ok I forgive you.not for you but for my own sanity.because I can’t live in the past anymore. I am slowly finding myself.and all I wanted was to be loved unconditionally.i hope life brings you happiness and you can get the help you need.to become a better person behind the mask you portray to others.